11/7/2011

Its just a short update. 

I started to discipline up myself after the serious fall. Time to stand up with my own little feet again. I came back to the Kampar and added in another semester to clear up all the mess that I had done. Thanks God for his all-sufficient grace for me to roll over again. 

Feeling regret of the past attitude is useless, action and changes on my life now is far more important. I saw these words sticking on my best friend Yucca's room which open my eyes

Do everything with full of

i) commitment

ii) responsibility

iii) passion 

This would be my goal ! Thanks, buddy for sticking such things in your room. 

Updating my life here. Nothing much. I feel blessed and thankful to everything a room to stay, subjects to be taken up, and everything works well. Just then, I'm lil bit busy with the assignments and midterms queuing up in their ways and of course a lil bit lonely with those closed one is away for intern. Sometime I'm kind of not used to the life here without them. Anyway all these will pass in weeks soon and I get to do massive preparation for my master in UK. Hopefully things may work out real good as what I plan for. 

p/s: sorry for friends that I dint tell much the main reason I come back to Kampar. Partly, I hardly open my mouth. Somehow Im telling u now, I come back for another semester (to cut the story short) and do whatever necessary and preparation for master in UK. Please do pray for me and I wish everything goes well. 

Never Give Up

Many times things doesn't works as we expected. Honestly, the past weeks are really a disaster to me. The stress of seeing each and everyone same age wearing graduation head one by one yet I started to ask myself whens my turn.

You may see me laughing outside the crowd but deep down in my heart I'm like "Oh, which way I should actually turn to. Left or right. Whats next? Why failure comes after failure. I din't put much effort on it? I'm tired of all these and I wish and I just wanted to give up, but then after so many years of hard work and effort can I just wrap it up and throw it away?" I get enough of all these thingy. 

At these point, I saw somethings that opened up my eyes. Something posted in Facebook, simple yet inspiring one

Steve Jobs was born out of wedlock, put up for adoption at birth, dropped out of college, then changed the world. What's your excuse for not be success?

In a sudden, I felt ashamed of myself. Where gone all my confidence? I should know that falling down is something very common in life. From the first time I learned to stand, I fall yet I stand again. From the first time I learned to walk, I fall too yet I stand up and walk again. There was also the first time I learned how to ride a bike, I fall, I cried yet in the end I stand up and master it. 

There are more people facing situation that is worst than mine but then, they never give up. So, what is my excuse to say I wanna give up.

I'm learning to stand up again now. Believing in myself as I used to do before, having dreams and believe I can do anything, not afraid of taking charge and action in my life. NEVER fear of falling down again, as I have all the power to climb up and believing in myself again. Wish me best of luck till the day I success in everything I planned for.

Yucca

There is an old Chinese saying that at home or within the family, we rely on our siblings or family members. But when it comes to outside of our home, we rely on friends. Friends are important because of many reasons. We keep friends not just to help us, but also because they are like a pillar to lean on in times when we are down. Of course, not all friends are reliable. There are what we called "fair-weathered friends", people who will stick with us in the good times, but disappeared the moment we are in need.

Best friends are people whom you can entrust with your innermost secrets, with the understanding that you will not be betrayed. Best friends shed tears along with you in trying moments, and rejoice and laugh along with you when you are successful in what you do.

So, who are your friends. Choose wisely. A good friend should not be a burden on us, and neither should we take him or her for granted for all the good things they do for us. No man is an island, so they say, and friends are important. I pray that you will find true friendship in your life. They are precious, like diamonds.

And I found one, in my days in UTAR. Her name is Yucca.

Dear Yucca,

Thanks to Moral Campaign brings us together. Thanks to L.C. who asked you be his assistance which caused me to approach you more in the campaign than others members. And I actually starts laughing when I remembered how I misunderstand you as L.C's gf. LOL. I'm really thanks God to have you as a best friend of mine. One year of knowing each another may sounds short but deep within us the bond of friendship is actually beyond everyone understanding. Honestly, I will miss you the most. Memories of how we called each another twins. Have the same taste on clothes, shoes, handbags... what funny point at here is that we went to the place separately at different times yet we spot the same things and even carried back the same clothes. Have the same opinion. Have the same characteristics. Have unlimited of girls talk and sometime after long talks we are still not enough of it and continue to talks in the car for an hour plus. Every meeting ended up with heavy heart to go back home and anticipating for the next talking section. Seriously, I can't type more caused I can't bear with my tears. I really wish to have u by side where ever I'm going to in future. But sadly, I can't do that. People said try not to promise others on things that you don't have confidence to do it. But then, I'm still here to promise you that you will be my best friend forever. No matter how busy, how horrible, how sad, how happy it is I will still send you sms at least once a day. =D Remember, you must be brave girl. Go and step ahead in achieving your dreams. You are leng lui even abang also praise you are leng lui only. His leng lui no 's' just because of u. So cheers. Don't cry like I did when you see this. Cause crying girl doesn't look pretty. You are leng lui shouldn't make yourself ugly kay ! 

Sincerely,
Belle Wong

When I cry, you are there to help me out

When I am happy, you are there to hear me shout

When I grin you know that I am really mad

You can always tell when I am sad

 You are the best friend I have ever had! 

You are there with me through thick and thin

You offer a helping hand when I am dim

You patiently listen when I want to talk

You tell me I am good even when I have been bad

You are the best friend I have ever had! 

So hear me out when I sayYou are the light in my day

You are the moon in my night

That made my life so bright

With you I am always glad

You are the best friend I have ever had!

Unconditional love

I came to these videos in Facebook. A very heartbreaking yet touching videos. It actually changed some of my personal view towards love. 

An unconditional of a young man with full of future for a deaf girl. He has a choice to leave with another girl who is normal but he choose to stay to the one he loves although been rejected for a few times.

I bless them to love each other forever 

A short poem of mine to summarized the story of the guy towards the girl...

A gentle word like a spark of light,
Illuminates my soul
And as each sound goes deeper,
It's YOU that makes me whole

There is no corner, no dark place,
YOUR LOVE cannot fill
And if the world starts causing waves,
It's your devotion that makes them still

And yes you always speak to me,
In sweet honesty and truth
Your caring heart keeps out the rain,
YOUR LOVE, the ultimate roof

So thank you my Love for being there,
For supporting me, my life.

Kellie Castle

I been two years and three months in Kampar (40 minute drive from Kellie Castle) but me nor the boy ever been there. Since I always wish to be there, finally the boy suggested to brings us (me and cousins) last week to visit Kellie Castle when cousins come over for vacations. *hugs the boy*

~ Front view of Kellie Castle ~

Here comes story of Kellie Castle...


Kellie Castle is another story of symbol of love after Taj Mahal in Agra, India. 


William Kellie Smith came to Malaya in his early age of twenties. He was by hired by an estate owner to help him with the road construction in Perak. He became rich after that and started to bought a jungle land and started his rubber plantation. His business prosper and he married his sweetheart from Scotland and decided to build a castle for his wife. 


Sadly the castle was not completed as Smith died due to pneumonia in a short trip to Portugal. The wife was heartbroken and decided to pack back and return to Scotland and she sold Kellie's Castle.


Kellie's Castle is full of legends. Some said that the spirit of Smith still wandering at the mystery corridor, other may talked about the secret of underground tunnels. However, apart from the two known tunnels, none of them were found. There are even rumors said that Smith's car is parked in one of tunnels but all the tunnels have been sealed off for safety reasons.


In order to travel there, Kellie Castle is located nearby Batu Gajah. Its about 15km from the center of Ipoh. 

~ Some newspaper cutting regarding Kellie Castle ~

~ The first Malaya escalator back in 1926 ~

~ Storage for wine ~

~ Mystery corridor where people believe that the spirit of Smith is still wandering here protecting his castle ~

~ Personal shoot at the guess room door ~

~ Panorama from the top of Kellie Castle ~

~ At the rooftop of Kellie Castle ~

~ cousin and her boyfie at the staircase ~

~ the boy <3 ~

~ another photo of Kellie Castle before we left ~

Weekend with coloring

Last two days, I was thinking, besides studying for midterm test again and a friend Debbie comes to visit me in the morning, what else I can do besides surfing net and chasing Hong Kong drama. This weekend would be a lonely weekend, Yucca my twins back hometown, the boyf back hometown too, QiQi back hometown as well, Lai back hometown as well.... >< everyone is going back home. 

When I was cleaning my room yesterday, I come across this things which I bought few months ago.

~ My Crayon ~

 ~My colouring book ~

Teehee... My colouring book. Don't laugh.... I know I'm 23 now. But then I still love colouring since I am 5 years old. This is one of my hobbies beside collecting key chain and postcards, reading, writing and reading. People often say " Fill your life with colours." When I do my colouring on a piece of black and white picture I feel like filling little by little of colours into the picture and make it wonderful. Everything would be beautiful with colours. 

~ This would be picture without colours. It looks dull right? ~

~ See photo with colors looks better. This is my half-way coloured Winnie the Pooh ~

~ My final product of coloured Winnie the Pooh ~

So, how many marks would you grade me ?

10/10 ? Hehe...

Anyway this makes my Lonely Sunday turns to be Wonderful Sunday.

Thanks to Buncho Oil Pastels / Crayon 

We could learn a lot from crayons; some are sharp, some are pretty, some are dull, while others bright, some have weird names, but they all have learned to live together in the same box.  ~Robert Fulghum

Update

It's been a long time since my last entry regarding Rooney...

Tomorrow will be week 9.

Sorry for leaving the blog to be dusty ....

Life update

Graduating in less than 2 months time.

Dilemma on what to do after graduating although I have my own dreams and plan to go for, but if God forbids and there is no blessing from Him, no matter how well I plan for it, in the end it will ruin as well. Perhaps, I should be more confidence on myself. 

After all, graduating and whats the path after this is what in my mind all these times. Besides I'm trying to discipline up myself. I got low self determination. I hopes I have a strong discipline character. Do you know Pocohantas? I hopes to be a girl like her. She is strong in character and full of power. So, from now onward I promised myself to have another break through. I hope to be a girl full of discipline and strong in character.

Nothing much to write by the moment and it's getting late now... I wish all folks out there have a blessed dreams... To be cont... =D